♥ gloomy~ ♥
Monday, May 25, 2009 5:04 AM
hellos.So school today was BORING as usual. Actually, this isnt what im blogging about.Im blogging because i hope that when this person reads this, i hope that she'll get better.(she's the one on the left of the picture)So...u guys can stop reading here if u want to.
------------------------heys there hy,I just wanna say that im really sorry that i wasnt there when you're really in need of me. It was just a big blow for me to know that you've been into so much pain for the past 3 months. Im SO sorry that i was being careless, i cared less about you. After meeting you today, i just couldnt stand the state you're in. Actually, i really wanted to cry, but i held back my tears because i know what you're gonna do if i really did that. After what you've been through, i was in a total state of shock. I just cannot imagine what those sadistic doctors did to you. I've been such a bad friend. After knowing you for a good 7 years, I feel so guilty that i wasnt by your side. What kind of friend am i?You should have given me a scolding just now. I deserved it.I thought everything was going so well, but my absence had made you worse. If i'd known, i should've have contacted you much much earlier. I pray to god that you'll get better soon. I want you back, that cheerful bubbly girl. Even if i'll take months for you to recover, i'd still wait.I know that my apology will not be enough for you to recover. But, this is all I can do. I'm just hoping for the best that you will STOP being a regular at the hospital. You were not like that before. I hate it. I wish i could just cure you or something so that you will get better faster. I hate the fact that the doctors and nurses are treating you like ginuea pig. You're not getting any better! For now, just take good care of you're health. Drink more water and eat more vegetables(please).I just want to let you know that i will always be there for you. Sometimes i'm so worried that i couldnt even sleep properly. I PROMISE that this will never happen again. But will you promise me one thing? If you encounter any problems, can you please at least CALL ME?! eventhough you have no strenght to even press the buttons of your phone. YOURE MAKING ME GO CRAZY! (sheesh)
thats all i can say for now. I hope that the treatment tomorrow will go smoothly. All the best. Just get well soon alright?!
-Kellie
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